Hear Us from Heaven

>> January 31, 2009

Lord, hear our cry
Come heal our land
Breathe life into these dry and thirsty souls
Lord, hear our prayer
Forgive our sin
And as we call on your name
Would you make this a place
For your glory to dwell

Open the blind eyes
Unlock the deaf ears
Come to your people
As we draw near
Hear us from heaven
Touch our generation
We are your people
Crying out in desperation

Hear us from heaven!

God, fix us!


I think this is my favorite Bible verse:

>> January 29, 2009

Tonight I was having my quiet time, and I read John 14.

One verse sticks out to me every time I read this chapter, which is about God's promises of Heaven, and the Holy Spirit.

John 14:27
I am leaving you with a gift - peace of mind and heart. and the peace I give is a gift the world cannot give. So don't be troubled or afraid.


Give me some Vitamin C

>> January 25, 2009

I'm getting a sore throat...

I need to get better before tech week...

This does not bode well... D=


Acting and Speaking

>> January 22, 2009

Speech day at worldviews is always fun... well... the dressing up part is...

I'm not too big of a fan of actually giving the speeches...

I don't know how I can like acting so much and not public speaking... wait... I DO know.

I like acting so much because you get to pretend to be someone else, and if you mess up, it wasn't you, it was your character... and the general audience doesn't know the difference... plus, the script is written for you.

I hate speaking so much because it's all you, and you have to write your own script and everybody knows if you messed up.


I've been really stressed lately, about my lines, my rehearsals, my homework... balancing everything... but there's one thing that's stressing me more than anything.

My friend "Yaroslav" (I'm changing his name... obviously). I LOVE him... he is the best guy friend I have EVER had. I know I shouldn't be stressing about this because it's in God's hands, but Yaroslav is not a Christian... and I desperately want to change that. At times it's just so hard to believe that he's not a Christian, because he's ALWAYS happy, and usually nice to everyone... even if he hates them... but I know he's not. He has made a big impact on my life, and I really want to make a big impact on his...

I'm trying to be Christlike, especially around him... but sometimes it's really difficult.

The other day, I was explaining my speech for today to him... which was about the Sistine Chapel Ceiling... we got into a deep discussion about the symbolism in the painting. At one point I mentioned how I didn't think it was biblical for Michelangelo to put Sibyls (Greek prophetesses who were in the Oracles) in his painting, because those women, who were supposed to prophesy, had been breathing sulfuric fumes and speaking gibberish. He then asked me a question I couldn't answer: "What do you believe makes a prophecy?" That really threw me off... it made me think really hard. Finally, I said something like this, "I believe that prophecies are from God. I believe the prophecies in the Bible because most of them have already come true, right down to the letter. I believe that that is cause enough to believe in the ones that haven't come true yet, because, logically, if so many people predict the same things, and most of them have come true, then the ones that haven't come true yet are highly likely to also be true."

I told him that I want to live for God even if there isn't a God, because if there is a God then I get an eternal reward, and if there isn't a God, then at least I lived a life worth living.

I feel like Yaroslav is searching, because, when I apologized for dumping my beliefs on him, he said he enjoyed hearing it... I don't know exactly what is going on with him, but he said he has beliefs but that he doesn't know how to explain them... He also said that he believes Jesus was a real person. I think Yaroslav is the kind of person who bases everything on what can be proven.

Anyway... Please pray for me to be able to radiate Jesus so I can be a witness to Yaroslav through my actions. Please pray for Yaroslav to find what he is looking for.



>> January 20, 2009

I drew this during church because I was bored.

It's Audrey 2 from Little Shop of Horrors.




>> January 16, 2009

I slept until 1:30 today, and I still haven't gotten out of bed!

I guess I'm catching up from when I was up til four.

I had better get my geometry and chemistry done, because I have rehearsals ALL day tomorrow.


Wow... this is a first... two blogs in one day.

>> January 15, 2009

Here is the story about my issues with stupid CD burners...

soo... I need to burn this CD. My Fair Lady, to be exact, because the one I had belonged to my friend and I gave it back today, because she needs to listen to it too.

We have no blank CDs in our house, so I asked for one from my voice teacher. She gave me one... but there was no way to tell which side was the side I needed to burn... both sides were the same.

I get home, and I take the blank CD, write "My Fair Lady" on it, and stick it into my laptop. I click the 'burn CD' button, and it tells me to put in a blank CD. That means that I wrote the "My Fair Lady" on the wrong side of the CD!

I turn the CD over and stick it back in on the off chance that it will work... and I burn an MP3 instead of an Audio CD.

So now I can't play the CD in the car even if it does work!

I take out the CD and put it back in, to test if the CD will work even with Sharpie on the wrong side.

It didn't work.

I microwaved that CD (btw, it's SO cool!).

So, I asked my dad if I could burn an audio CD onto a DVD-R, since we have an abundance of those... don't ask me why, we never burn DVDs... EVER... He said he didn't know, so I said I would try it... then my dad was like, "wait, that won't work."


My Fair Costumes

My Fair Lady costumes (1912-like clothes) are proving difficult to find.

I think I need about ten costumes.

Cockney everyday clothes
Cockney Sunday best clothes
A white blouse that looks good
Two flowing skirts that aren't too full
A nightgown... i think... i'm not even sure about that.
A fancy black and white dress for the horse races... plus a ginormous black and white hat
A ballgown (I think my director might be providing that one)
A skirt suit
An evening dress (I've got that... it's purple... and it's really pretty! but it needs to be taken in a little)

on top of that, I need a maid costume and another ball gown... but I might be able to use the purple dress... as long as I'm not sharing costumes with my counterparts...

Tonight I have a voice lesson from 4:30-5:15 and a rehearsal from 5-6 for just me and Freddy... and then a rehearsal from 6-9 with everyone else... grrrrrrawr... I wish they didn't overlap.

I need to be off book... but I'm not...

Being a lead is STRESSFUL.


I only hate two people.

>> January 12, 2009

It's true. My hate list is not long... Two obnoxious human beings. Stupid people... why do those two boys have to make it so difficult to NOT hate them...

But it's still too long.

I've decided to try to stop hating them. It's going to be difficult, but with God's help I can do anything... even be civil to two annoying boys...

Please pray that I will have the self control to not be so sarcastically mean all the time to those people, even when they say something stupid. Even when they laugh at their own jokes. Even when they won't shut their mouths. Even when they are so ADD that it drives me insane. Pray that I will be nice to them. Pray for God's strength in me.


Why don't I sleep?

>> January 8, 2009

I think I'm becoming nocturnal... but that has to change! NOW! because school is starting again... grrr...

hmmm... I wonder what would happen if I were nocturnal.

I would have no friends.
I'd do pointless stuff.
I'd never become an actress.
I'd never go anywhere except maybe WalMart... and I hate WalMart.

no. I don't want to be nocturnal.

sunshine is my friend.

and now... to sleep!


What is Love?

>> January 4, 2009

I always feel so stupid writing in my diary about boys.

Why? Because my view of love is all wrong. I've never actually been in love, so I don't know what it is. What I do know is that what I think is love is nowhere near what love actually is.

In 7th grade I thought I loved one guy. Not long afterward, I thought I loved another guy. Just a few months later, I thought I loved still another guy. Currently, sometimes I think I love yet another guy. That is not love. None of it is really real.

I think that part of truly loving someone is wanting to grow old with them. True Love isn't something you can "fall out of." Any "love" that can change so quickly, unexpectedly, and abruptly is not love at all, but merely an unhealthy infatuation.

I'm pretty sure that most of us have experienced such infatuations. We tend to meet a person, find ourselves attracted to them, and then fantasize about our life together and our perfect relationship and our perfect wedding and how many kids we'll have, even though we barely know them. Later, we realize that that person is a jerk and we were just wasting our time.

I'm not saying we shouldn't be attracted to people. After all, attraction is one of the first steps toward true love. Attraction is not bad in and of itself; its "badness" (for lack of a better word) is based on what we make of it. Attraction does not have to lead to infatuation.

The opposite of love is selfishness. Infatuation and lust are forms of selfishness, because you are seeking to please yourself by your unrealistic fantasies instead of pleasing God by looking out for the other person and helping guard their heart.

I wish it were easy to control our emotions toward other people, but the honest truth is, it's tough. Anyone who has had a "crush" knows this. What we need to do is to TRY to prevent these things. Unfortunately, we'll never be able to prevent infatuation on our own. We can't do anything without God except maybe sin. We have to trust in God, and ask for guidance, as well as help with guarding the hearts and minds of ourselves and those around us.


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